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Thursday, March 21, 2019

Paul's thoughts on Dead of Winter Last Christmas

There is a new post up on the website with Paul's thoughts on the episode. Note that he has not seen it himself and is only judging based on the transcript. HERE is the post

33 comments:

  1. I’ll bet Paul ends up getting shanked and killed by someone in prison before it’s over. Or maybe beat to a pulp and put on life support. He’s already a cripple and his condition Is only going to Get worse as he gets older and more decrepit. He won’t be able to defend himself in about 10 or 15 years as he starts to become an old man. Some young buck out to make a name for himself or/and slice him to pieces or push him off a tear or whatever you name it

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    1. Someone watched too many prison movies.

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    2. but why be so negative buddy, yes that all can happen, give him a friendly word plz

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  2. but why so negative my friend,

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  3. Any updates on Paul with his latest clemency petition? Was it officially denied? Is he going to write a 7th clemency petition?

    This month is coming up to the 26 year anniversary of Paul's arrest. Honestly do you think Paul will ever be exonerated? We all like being positive and hopeful telling Paul he will someday be free, but in brutal honesty, do you think Paul will ever see freedom? Family/close friends of Paul, please share your thoughts.

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    1. There has been no response to the clemency petition yet. If you are interested in helping it out, please e-mail governor Pritzker to show your support for the petition. The more people who show support the more likely it is to get signed.

      Yes, we truly believe Paul will be free someday. We just don't know when.

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  4. Wow! 26 years! He’s been 8 years longer than he has been alive at the time he was arrested and sent to prison. I do hope he makes it out soon. The Department of Illinois online photos of the old guys in there are just shocking. They all look so horrible. Prison has destroyed them.

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    1. Paul still looking good.

      Whatever happened with the Illinois innocent project?

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    2. They did minor work on his case before quitting. Mostly to help get the DNA in Bob's car processed.

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    3. Why did they quit?

      What did the DNA test reveal?

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    4. THey finished the work they came to do. The DNA revealed it was Bob's blood in the car.

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    5. So what does Paul do with this dna info?

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    6. He's using as part of his post conviction petiton

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  5. I know it is a growing crisis not just in Illinois, but across the entire country with elderly prisoners and the lack of money and resources needed to provide care for them. I have heard horrific stories like dying elderly inmates spending their last hours of life handcuffed to a bed, even in the presence of attending family at their bedside. Come on, they are not going to hurt anyone or try to escape, you could at least show them and their families some dignity during their final hours. Or another case where an elderly inmate developed hearing problems had a malfunction in his hearing aid, which caused him to miss count. He was then punished and thrown in segregation by guards who believed he was just purposely skipping count, not understanding his hearing aid.

    Its ironic how no other country has this growing problem of elderly inmates. That is because the United States incarcerates the highest amount of its citizens worldwide and hands down such draconian sentences, compared to other countries. Not to mention the thousands of innocent people who have been wrongfully convicted - even when dna and other factors prove that this person was innocent, the prosecutors fight to keep that innocent person locked up anyways, just to avoid admitting they made a mistake. In America, it is very difficult to nearly impossible to win a post conviction appeal or free a wrongfully convicted prisoner. Our criminal justice system is a shame to the rest of the world.

    To combat the growing elderly inmate crisis, they should come up with some type of system that allows inmates over 50, who have already served 20+ years in prison, to be evaluated and if determined to be non violent/reformed, be allowed release back into society. I mean alot of these inmates serving lwop committed these crimes back when they were 18-19 or early 20's, when the brain is still not fully developed. They have been in prison and served their time for 20+ years. Many times they have been reformed and would never kill again, yet they are forced to rot in prison until their natural death. They should be allowed a second chance later in life, most violent crimes are committed by young people, offenders over 50 are far less likely to carry out murders or other violent crimes. Again not all inmates (i.e. mass murderers), but the ones who are deemed to be reformed should be allowed back into society. A case by case program to help reduce our growing elderly inmate crisis.

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    1. Child molestors should remain in prison.

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  6. Everyone knows the prosecution failed to effectively tie paul to the crime and that there was little to no actual evidence circumstantial or not. Whether or not Paul did it is not the question. The question is why he was thrown in jail despite never having been involved in the crime. I will tell you why. Based on Paul's psychological profile, they decided to do a hit job on his character and portray him to be a criminal mastermind.

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  7. I want Paul to do an old style blog post. I'm not expecting it to be a regular thing, but it would be nice if he updated us on his life in general. A long time has passed, and alot of things have happened. He should humanize himself a little. Ive been reading the blog since 2010, and I know all the fact of his case. Ive read and listened and researched the archives. Hes not going to convince me any more than he has.

    Let's get a personal update.

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    1. I will talk to Paul about doing one but he doesn't have a lot of extra time on his hands.

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    2. LOL all he has is time!

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  8. He doesn’t have a lot of extra time on his hands? 🤣 That in fact is ALL he has. And LOTS of it.

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    1. Yes. Time is what he has and what he's doing.

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    2. Yea I get he has goals and is a perfectionist, but I live alone and not in prison and have time to be a volunteer for many things. Youd think the guy who wants people to support him financially and emotionally would be able to write us a personal update.

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    3. He's currently working on his post conviction petition which is taking up a lot of his time.

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  9. Just saying....alot of us are long time supporters, and yea many dont have much money to spare for his defense funds. But he pretty much berates people for not giving money, without really offering much in return anymore. If he wants donations, or commissary money, he kind of needs to offer something. Repeating the same reasons hes innocent isnt enough. The people who support him...some of us since 2009, dont need to hear how robert was an asshole. Hes gotta be a little personal with us. Being angry at life and his family that didnt fund all his hopes isnt getting him out, appealing to the public might though.

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    1. It's something I will talk to him about. But right now he's focusing on his Post conviction petition.

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  10. Yeah I’m with the person above. No blog posts by Paul equals NO MONEY from me.

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  11. New York State has introduced a controversial bill right now in the Senate that allows inmates over 55 who have served 15+ years (including inmates serving lwop)to be evaluated for release.

    If this bill is passed and becomes law, maybe Illinois could follow suit and this would potentially help free Paul (granted he would have to wait another 11 years, and would be a convicted felon for the rest of his remaining years, but I would take it just to get out of that living hell we call Stateville)

    Check out the news link on the new bill

    https://www.nbcnewyork.com/news/local/New-York-Lawmakers-Bill-Legislation-Parole-Eligible-Inmates-55-Prison-Reform-508807771.html

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  12. I’d pay for Paul to post. Anybody else? The guy is a genius writer. Just read through all his old stuff. It all ought be be published in a book.

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  13. I love reading Paul’s stories! Can we buy him a typewriter?

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    1. I think typewriters are not allowed in max prisons because it can be used as a weapn.

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  14. To the "I bet Paul ends up getting shanked" guy, you must be a lot of fun at parties. But just so you know, prison doesn't work the way you depicted and you are mistaken. Your idea of the way prison works is monstrously warped, no disrespect.

    For your information, if Paul were going to get "shanked" by some "young buck" it would have happened long ago. In prison, if someone puts a hit out on you and actually has enough pull to make it actionable, one thing they don't do is sit around with their thumb in their ass waiting for you to age out of being able to defend yourself, don't be absurd. They just send some dudes and try to catch you off guard, and if you're still standing after that then who knows, maybe God smiles upon your life with favor.

    But you must understand that this kind of violence doesn't just happen randomly or because someone gets a wild hair. There are certain people who are targeted for violence like what you described in prison and others who aren't, but that's all determined right away, when you first enter prison, not 26 years after the fact. The nature of the crime you've been convicted of is generally the deciding factor when you first hit the yard that people will look at in order to determine whether or not it would be beneath their human dignity to live anywhere near you, and interestingly enough murder isn't one of the convictions that gets you in hot water with other convicts in prison, although the details of your case are also taken into consideration and there are certainly exceptions to that. But as a rule, it's mostly pedophiles and police informants who have to worry about this. Everyone else is incorporated into general population, where one has far more control over how others respond to their presence. Believe it or not, there's an unwritten code of (for the most part) carefully enforced values among prisoners, but you would have to be fairly, perhaps even repetitively, disruptive to the social order in order for anyone to bother with trying to kill you, which has to be approved by the shot caller who makes decisions on behalf of the members of your race anyway. By the way, shot callers tend to be lifers who have already served decades...sound familiar?

    Paul isn't a shot caller to the best of my knowledge, but he is a lifer and lifers across the board tend to keep quality control in the facilities where they're serving their sentence because that's literally their one and only home probably forever, and they just aren't going to tolerate a bunch of youngsters acting like fools, it's annoying and unimpressive to them. Therefore, it only stands to reason that, having been there 26 years, Paul knows how to conduct himself in prison and anyway, older lifers in particular are automatically afforded some degree of respect by other prisoners, because the common human tendency to organize ourselves and others into social hierarchies is apparently very difficult to dispel even within the already very rigid context of prison.

    A Roman slave known simply as Terrence once famously said: "Homo sum, humani nihil a me alienum puto" which translates roughly to "nothing human is alien to me."

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  15. And to those of you who resent the fact that Paul doesn't post here even though you send donations to him: I understand that many of you are long-time readers who feel personally invested in Paul, but to the best of my knowledge he has never implied that his blog posts are for sale, or that he will write them if you send him money. You all have my admiration for chipping in your hard-earned money to facilitate the efforts of someone who has been trying like hell for 26+ years to right a life-crushing wrong to no avail, and you deserve all the credit in the world for stepping up. It's people like you, who extend their resources to others on principle alone, who end up being the force that turns the tide in a favorable direction for people who have lost hope of ever seeing that happen. But that being said: you're helping for the sake of being helpful, not buying something. BUT if you really want to know what's up with Paul, he HAS mentioned in the past that he will respond personally to letters if anyone is interested in writing to him, which costs next to nothing (time notwithstanding) to do. And I mean, that IS kind of like getting a handwritten blog post that speaks to you directly by name and is literally hand delivered to you wherever you receive your mail. Can't get more personal than that, really. Just a thought. Much love.

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  16. To Audry,
    Fair enough. However, could he update the blog with a personal post, just a couple times a year? Certanly he has time for that.

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